Tuesday, March 4, 2008

wispiness of dreams!!

chavent we often woke up bright eyed in mornings with the memory of a wonderful dream fresh but somehow the details of the dreams eluding us? so frustrating , no?
i have had a few dreams that i have never been able to forget, a couple of vivid dreams extravagant in details and numerous in characters!!! but most of them were from my early childhood with one of my most memorable being a dream i had at my maternal ancestral house at nilambur. it was some sort of family get together and we, the platoon of kids used to lie down in a row of beds in the main hall and that same place was the setting for my dream!!!
near the window of the hall there is a a huge helicopter!! and it does not have regular doors- instead there are circular holes for people to slide in!! i , of course , am the pilot and my various cousins are the crew. it was a mechanical contraption with no regular engine to power the propeller blades!!! somehow my cousins succeed in cranking up the rotor and i lift the helicopter off the floor. it doesnt rise very high , though. perhaps about 3 feet!!! maybe it was at that time that i woke up!!!

this was the one dream that i have remembered for ever!!! i might have seen at the age of 6 or 7 max, but still the concepts are quite vivid in my mind!!! i dont know how or why this one dream is so memorable, cos by no means is it the one i enjoyed most or the most thrilling i had!!!

another dream i remember a lot consists of a thriller dream where i lead a commando assault on my nilambur home!!! there are tunneling involved and many other stunts, and though i dont remember their nature, the existence of stunts is very memorable!!!!

then there is my most frightening nightmare. this i had when i was in new delhi!! perhaps at age 4 or 5!! but still the blood chilling nature of the dream is vivid in my mind. it had me spinning in some sort of a spiral which is kinds endless, one spiral leading to another spiral with a sickly sort of soft music playing in the back ground!!! it was like being in a timeless black hole!!! never ending fright!!! no ghouls, no draculas or any of the traditional fright masters- just an endless falling in circles!!!! i have had this dream about 4 or 5 times and gradually i learned to wake up just when i start having the dream!!! it is so scary that even now i get scared of the concept.

if any shrink is reading this goop , take note, this point may help you in confirming my appointment in a lunatic asylum!!!

but what really saddens me is that i have forgotten so many great dreams all so consciously!!! there are of course dreams that are completely in the unconscious realm of mind. but there are some in the sub conscious realm of regular sleep that are quite fleetingly conscious to us when we are awake!!! and they are the most imaginative, thrilling and exciting dreams i ever had!!!! the sort of craziness i have experienced in those dreams will make even the demented reader blush!!! but the frustrating part is the acute lack of detail!!! the inability to revisualise that stunning hottie, that amazing location, that super cool stunt i did, the amazing adventures, basically the sort of things the memory and visualization of which makes the day for a committed sloth and day dreamer like me!!! but the more i try to "remember" the details more i tend to forget, but the feel of the dream does linger for a very long time. the basic emotion of the dream be it, happiness, adventure, romance or anything does persist well into the morning the time around noon when i find myself fully awake!!! and they are even greater when i wake up comparatively early, ie, around 8am!!!
the fleeting memory of those early morning wispy dreams give me the energy and guidance for the day's activities and moods.
profound???? i am i truly going nuts??? who cares???!!!

1 comment:

Biker BT said...

Hi Ho ! i think ur helicopter dream could be ur ambitious personality realising reality!


The spiral dream could be a emotional instabilty at that point of time similar to the people who dream of falling into a bottomless pit.

Your blogs are interesting....probably an intellectual wavelength may be needed to get into the meaning..keep blogging and good luck ! cheers ! BT